what to wear?

so it's been 2 months and glad to say i am still on this journey....it's not been easy, esp now that summer has come to an end and i feel like i have nothing to wear! :) of course i have a ton of boxes with fall/winter clothes waiting for me to open, but the bigger issue is that i want something NEW....i don't know about you, if you give much thought to what you put on in the morning. but usually as i start my day i am looking for something to wear and often i feel like i have nothing.... this isn't ever true of course, the real truth is that i want something new and i catch myself thinking why is that?

often i spend way more time preparing myself physically in the morning than i do spiritually. i grew up in a church that required you dress up - "your sunday best," i guess you can call it and i recall putting a lot of effort into what to wear and arranging and rearranging myself and often would end up sitting in church discontent, or envious that someone looks better than me, etc. i remember catching myself with these thoughts once and thinking "wow, how did i spend so much time preparing myself physically, and not one second did i think of my thoughts or where my heart was before is came here." i remember thinking god was probably not pleased or honored with me.

but it's such a habit to do this. here i am some years later and i still emphasize the physical over the spiritual. although i've come to care less about what i look like, i must admit i don't care MORE about what i look like spiritually.
"since god chose you to be holy, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience."

how do you clothe yourself with these? probably not by spending 20 minutes in your closet deciding which looks better. i suppose it starts with humility, because honestly it is pride that makes us want to look good. i think once you have humility it is not so hard to decide what to wear.